1.26.2009

puppy hiccups

It's going to be a long long time before (and if) I ever have a baby....

Life with Waldo started Friday, and I knew I was in for some work, but it's one of those things that you don't fully grasp until you're in it. Sleepless nights, countless trips outside to use the bathroom, hours spent making sure he doesn't chew or swallow anything harmful, feeding schedules, lack of feeding schedule for me, and trying to shower and work anytime he decides to take a nap. Motherhood.
The good thing is that it's totally worth it, especially when his clumsiness cracks me up, he gets a spell of puppy hiccups, or he takes refuge in my arms when he's cold or tuckered out. I've had the usual doubts about taking on such a task, but I already now the benefits are going to greatly outweigh the struggles. For starters, he's great therapy for my commitment issues. For my whole life I've always been good at loyalty, but not permanency. For example, I was always the one borrowing horses, spending time with other people's dogs, working part time jobs, and never being able to commit to a serious relationship (this is getting kind of personal). Even grad school seemed like such a good idea because it was temporary. In part, having that kind of freedom has been great, and I have been able to do what I want when I want. So, whenever something enters the picture that seems a little too permanent I get extremely stressed out, I loose my appetite, and can't focus on much (wow, really spilling it out now). I've had that feeling a few times since the arrival of Waldo, but it's starting to subside now. I know that he will be around for a long long time, but during that long long time we will have some grand adventures together. And, his presence in my life certainly does not mean that I loose all my freedom, it just means I will be installing a little more structure and planning in my routine.

Plus, it's impossible not to love such a cute puppy.
Shauna, don't worry, by the time we get to your house in a week he will be a perfect gentleman:)
Claire, can't wait to see the results of the Waldo photo shoot!

1 comment:

claire said...

you're going to be such a good little mama. i know how hard the transition is - even if it is just a puppy - but it is so totally going to be worth it.
can't wait for regular waldo updates!!

...and i'll have photos for you soon...