7.14.2008

home feeling

First of all, I am thrilled that our camping trip turned out so nicely. It wasn't the kind of camping we typically do, but it was still really nice to be with so many friends in the outdoors for a weekend. It was a bit of a random assortment of people, but I love that we can all get together with minimal conflict and awkwardness. I also love any time that you, Sam, Logan and I find ourselves in the same place. It's a good feeling to have such a long history with the three of you.

The topic of "home" has been weighing heavily on my mind the past month or so for many reasons. For one thing , it is starting to sink in that in just 10 short months I will already be done with school, and again at the beginning of a new chapter in my life. I have fully realized that the older you get the faster years seem to fly by, because it seems like just yesterday that I found out I was going toWSU, and now my time is almost up.

I have a few places in mind I would like to relocate to, but the most important thing I have realized is that if I end up back in Colorado it won't mean that I am regressing as a person. I don't think I have become a new person since moving to Washington, but I definitely think that I have become MORE of myself since moving away. Initially, I thought I would only be able to hold on to that progress if I remained somewhere distant and new. While, there is a lot of character building in a distant and new place, I don't think it is necessarily true that I can only be "more of me" under those circumstances. Make sense? In a way, I feel a new freedom when it comes to making a choice about where to live in the coming years wherever that may be. And if it happens to be somewhere in Colorado, that is fine by me because it holds a giant place in my heart.

1 comment:

Claire said...

you being in colorado holds a giant place in my heart, too.